DANIELLE

It’s 11:41 PM. I am in tears right now. My mom and dad are asleep so I can’t talk to them. Plus, my mom was snippy with me tonight regarding this problem. I don’t think she realizes how freaked out I am.

But I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this because I’m still unsure about the thing I have planned for that day.

It’s complicated and stressful and embarrassing and so frightening.

I wish I had someone to talk to right now. Someone to hug me and tell me it’s going to be ok. Someone to help me figure out what I want to do. 

… are all playing at the House of Blues in Chicago the Friday and Saturday after Thanksgiving. And I REALLY want to go. That would be such an amazing show. The problem is that I don’t have many friends who share my taste in music so it’ll be hard to find someone to go with.

But anyone can see that this line up is AWESOME right? How could anyone NOT want to go?

There’s just a lot that I need to get out that I don’t want public. I’ve never been a committed journal/diary writer so we’ll see how this goes.

samdesant1s:

kaitmpayne:

My parents have this sinkhole in their yard. At first they tried filling it with sand and stuff, but it wasn’t working. Now they just throw random shit in there, scrap wood, old shingles, whatever. It’s still there though.

Sometimes I can relate to that, you know? I’m trying to fill an unfillable void when I don’t even really know what I need.

I’m just ready for the next part of my life, I guess. I’m restless.

I would love a relationship that starts effortlessly and stays that way.

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Ok so maybe I was wrong about him and their relationship being effortless. So let me rephrase: I would love a relationship that looks like theirs did in the beginning but that lasts.

Pete Wentz and Alex Gaskarth.

I know, I’m way behind the times on these. Oh well. They’re adorable. I just thought I’d share.

Met a friend of a friend tonight who graduated from Purdue this past May and is now working in the real world. He honestly couldn’t look more depressed than he does. I felt so bad for him. While I’m glad I have another year to put in between me and real life, just looking at him and listening to his life story makes me so nervous for my future. I don’t want to be unhappy.

I want to live.

sierrakkusterbeck:

There are no rules or boundaries when it comes to yourself.
whatever it is you want to do or create, go ahead!

samdesant1s:

peanutbutteranjali:

I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time over analyzing, over thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down. So much that we don’t ever stop to see that, we are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed, and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day.

File under: Things everyone forgets sometimes

But it looks like most of them aren’t even going to be televised! I found this schedule and this tv schedule but it doesn’t match up with what my tv is showing me.

I don’t understand who WOULDN’T want to watch those events.

I don’t know what to dooooooooo. I JUST WANT MY HORSES. Gymnastics and swimming are interesting but why can’t I have my dressage, eventing, and show jumping too?

thegreatestactor:

I hold a pillow
between my two lonesome arms
when no one’s around.